A few days after her wedding Anne released
her autobiography entitled "Call me crazy"
. In this book, she wrote
the story of her life, from her childhood to her wedding. Or rewrote, will
say the most dubitative. Because from the beginnig, the book is very discussed.
To present it, Anne is received by the star TV animator Barbara Walters. She then
explains the drama which was hers. The origin of her problems goes back to a
traumatism of her childhood. The actress was abused by her father who carried out
a double life and frequented gay bars. In order to overcome the horror of this
nightmare she escaped to a fantasy world. In this world she had another personality
which she called Celestia, which was from another planet and who could talk to God.
The actress declared that she spent the first 31 years of her life suffering from
mental illness triggered by sexual abuse by her father. She recovered her mental
health only last year, after being found, wandering in a sad way, around
Fresno. The actress says she was insane during her relationship with DeGeneres.
Moreover she reproaches her mother for not having listened to her when later
she tried to explain her drama to her.
"She hung up the phone on me," Heche recalls. "To have gone through so much work to heal
myself and have my mother not acknowledge in any way that she was sorry for what had
happened to me broke my heart."
She adds :
"I think it's always hard for children to talk about abuse because it is only memory.
I didn't carry around a tape recorder-- I didn't chisel anything in stone-- Anybody can
look and say, 'Well how do you know for sure?' And that's one of the most painful things
about it. You don't."
Anne also evokes her breakup with Ellen.
"How do you put into a sentence why you break up with somebody?" asks Heche. "We had
gotten to the point where we were not happy together anymore. We had become isolated
from the world, together."
However, the answer of her family is provide on Susan's internet site
(Previewport.com), her senior sister. Nancy Heche answers the charges of her junior
"I am trying to find a place for myself in this writing, a place where I as Anne's mother
do not feel violated or scandalized. I find no place among the lies and blasphemies in
the pages of this book."
Her sister Abigail, who was very close to Anne during her childhood has more measured
remarks, but she does not agree with Anne.
"It is my opinion that my sister Anne truly believes, at this moment, what she has
asserted about our father's past behavior; however, at the same time, I would like to
point out that Anne, in the past, has expressed doubts herself about the accuracy of
such memories. Based on my experience and her own expressed doubts, I believe that
her memories regarding our father are untrue. And I can state emphatically,
regardless of Anne's beliefs, that the assertion that our mother knew about such
behavior is absolutely false."
Questioned about her family’s denials, Heche adds :
"What can I tell you? It's about denial. My family has been
circling the wagons for years."
Meanwhile, we can agree with the conclusions of her book :
"The fact that there are people hearing my story is the icing on
the most beautiful cake in the world, that I imagine says, 'Happy freedom, Anne. You have
made it to the other side.'"